People of faith find comfort in God, and some tend to think that there is a reason for all things…

But I can't find that comfort, and I don't see the point of all our suffering either.

However, I am proud of all of the suffering I've been able to endure. It's a show of strength and resiliency. You are strong too, Sam. It is not fair that you have to go through all this ****, but you haven't given in. You have been doing everything you can to get better. You are a fighter.

I know things are taking a long time, and you just want to get better. You will. Just keep fighting

I'm glad that you are finding ways of distracting yourself. I don't know how you could do more…

I find deep breathing exercises helpful when I'm anxious. A breath in through the nose, out through the mouth is "one," the next set is "two," and so forth. It's simple, can be done anywhere, anytime, and can also provide temporary distraction.

Thinking of you Sam

Kay