Danny, I know this is hard. I've been in the same mindset as you. But you have to realize that it WILL get better. If you change your mindset, you will go a long way. Positivity can heal. Wake up every morning saying I got this. Mindfulness Meditation has done wonders for me. There is a great quote by Henry Ford that says, "Whether you think you can or you can't, you're probably right." If you think you're going to get better, you will. Anxiety and depression only make things worse. Here are some links to videos that have helped me. I hope you can find some comfort in them.

The Meaning - Jim Carrey - YouTube
Rewire & Evolve Your Brain - Dr. Joe Dispenza - YouTube

Best to you