To a who understand addiction
My choice of drug is alcohol
It is six years now I take hard core medicines
Having entered the rooms in 1990 and I was bitten
in 1992
It was time in my sobriety I had this very hard time with counting days
For me I don't know if it was my OCD I have a fixation with numbers odd and even numbers
Sick right
But the truth
Today I am certain
The MOST important day is the one one is in
I have seen many with twenty years pick up
And some who have passed as a result of the addiction
It for me became something I did not concentrate on the accumulated was difficult
And then when I became I'll and had to take medicines just broke me
However now when I am at a meeting
I am able to express to all with the stressors and but for the simple fact I felt my sobriety was robbed from me
Only became another TOOL I am able to use and for me
Just for today I am greatful I haven't ever abused my medicines
For the day I ever should want to try something stupid like that will be the day I put the pills aside and pick up
AND I DON'T
I DON'T
every single day I don't pick up is another day of clarity
ABOUT SOBRIETY
It is me who thinks of this day I am in as the most important thing I can do in my day is stay sober
JUST FOR TODAY
and it is this kind of mind I go through in my day
But for the grace of Heavenly Father I get it
I get it
I pray my children who suffer addiction
I have my grandchild because of that very reason
It is a terrible thing to watch you loved ones in my case my children suffer addiction
One day at a time
It can be done only ONE DAY AT A TIME
yesterday has passed without picking up
Today I shall try and do the same
I cannot tell you about tomorrow
I may not be with the living
So just for today
Pam to have someone like yourself having
ones back and are slowly healing yourself as you too
BEGIN TO CHANGE
What I mean by that
Only you let in your life today what is important
A sober life
Is a great life
To remember my drinking days
We still talk about it openly
Especially with my older children
My eldest talks about bringing my vomit bucket on my days off
Oh in hindsight how I put my children in harms way when in that state
How greatful I am not to have the obsession
And that it is lifted for today
NEVER stray from that
Just for today
One day at a time
When our character defects begin to act up
Is usually a sign we are straying from the principles
You are a special individual
A dedicated partner
Who deserves a big hug
And to be recognized in this also
As all around beging to change with you and him for the better
How cool is that
It is so dry true in the beginning
We are so hard on ourselves
This is when the support system takes on a huge role
Yet bottom line it is the addict who makes it happen
No one else
You are on that road to recovery
And with that comes change
With much love
Me