I agree with the others. Maybe you need a med change, I would talk to your p-doc ASAP. Maybe just maybe it would be good for your wife to go with you to a session.

Also, keep those lines of communication OPEN with your wife, take time for the both of you to be alone and tell her everything you are feeling. Even if it is just going out for a nice, quiet, romantic dinner, just the two of you.

I too have self-medicated with alcohol and other things, that was before I was diagnosed with BP II.

How long have you been on BP meds and/or diagnosed? Sometimes it takes awhile before p-doc's gets the right combo of meds for us, and the dosage.

Hang in there......keep posting.

Hope you are feeling better today. To say the truth - drinking is only compounding the situation and it is a depressent, been there, done that and it lead to worse situations, like the big S. more than once for me.

Hugs, Nikko