I will post this here because depression comes in many forms

It has been five years since on tamoxifen a drug that stop any estrogen production because my cancer is estrogen driven
Then cortisol produced by high stress
And finally progesterone another important hormone

I write this with a week of deep depression
Some situational add to that the lac of estrogen
I am a basket case

Being so in tune with my body mind and spirit
There is no question in my mind most of my depression is hormone
Doing all I can to take care of myself
No doctor is even touching it
Having my mutation that has been addressed reached its threshold
Now I am left with this
I have two and a half years left to be on tamoxifen
I will be very curious how my mental state will be
I am so in touch with my body
I am certain
Hot flashes
Sugar cravings Cortisol stress
Highs and lows
There is a check list of twelve signs to the three hormonal depression
And I cover a twelve
Everyone of them
This depression can mess me up big time
and because I know me I understand it

HOWEVER
And this be the reason I post it here rather then in women health
forum men and women need to know this

Depression so misunderstood
SO MANY FACTORS

I hope this helps get out there
so others can start paying attention to themselves a little better
and know your not crazy
It's your body out of wack
I had a very difficult time when I was in my ovulating days
And when I was going through my menopausal faze
All hell broke loose
This is when I got breast cancer
Remember
It is the kind that is driven by estrogen
My estrogen production ceased when starting tamoxifen

So where does that leave me
Fighting every single day not to give into it
It is a fight I hate
I rarely use the word hate
But the truth of the matter is I HATE how it robs me of my happiness
Will I ever feel the happiness I so look for
Love
Me