Father
Brother
Mother Mary

Blessings in my day I thank You for

It is a better day
Weather wise
I have much trouble in the days of humidity
And it is thick here
My breathing labored
My chest in pain when over exerted
Nothing I ever imagined
My mortality brings me closer to You
As much as I want to be in Your arms
You have me stay for my children
The thoughts that run through my mind
is not a place I want to be
I ask Heavenly Father that it not be hard at the end
Let me raise my children to see them do well
Keep them safe with all I had to offer them
Let them feel my love when I may be in thought
Having to block them from contacting me is only for my well being
TNF the tumor necrosis factor has taken its toll on this body
My stress and depression not in my head
It is my reality
I MUST pull myself up
Brush off myself
And just do as I am awakened
So much of it all
I could talk and understand what is happening
and how it is A L L INTERCONNECTED
my doctor putting it all together
Heal me Heavenly Father
Heal me
I Jesus name I ask mercy
Forgive me of my sins
As I walk this world we call earth
You blessed me with a family
I pray I did my very best
Only You know what I had and still have to offer
My grandchild came to me last night and said
Mimma
I a big girl like You
Coming in to get a glass that was empty
Be careful I said
Even grown ups like mimma has accidents
Glass can be dangerous
She looks at me
Head to toe
Will I be big like you mimma
I told her yes
As she is very tall for her five years of age
So innocent
So precious
The daily hugs just because they feel so good to her
Holding her close to my heart
She could hear it pound and beat away
Let this latter pat of live be enjoyed by me
And to be strong to keep it together
My baby sister with me at doctors
as my advocate
Her work all her life with doctors
A phlebotomist
We have a good relationship
And told me not to long ago how happy she is in our time we have together
Saying "this is what I wanted all my life"
"What I have now with you"
"I never felt so good as I do where we are right know"
This is because she gave herself over to Heavenly Father
She at times inspires me
Her life changed for the better when she surrendered
You know I still hold on to stuff I NEED to let go of
A good friend of mine passing with lung complications
The pain of it horrible
But in YOUR loving arms
Someone I met it AA
In 1990
I have memories of his funny laugh
A jolly person was he
Never played Santa
Would have been a great Santa
My day started with a stir of uneasiness
Trying to empower this mind and body
Let my simple blessings override this feel
waiting for it to pass
If the day continues to stay dry
We will have a day at the pool
This the first year I cannot entertain the outside humid heat
Tomorrow a better day so the weatherman says
Will wait for tomorrow
And concentrate on today
The night was peacefulwith several difficulities arising in the early morning
It started with the sweats
Menses stopped at fifty
It is the side effects of the tamoxifen and other factors
Not able to return to sleep
And not allowing my brain the time to think
I began with my start of the day
And come here

Heavenly Father
I must let go of many thoughts
And trust in You for everything
I must give it
Completely to have true serenity
In Jesus I trust
In God the Father I believe
Show me the way
Blessings of Hope in this world
Amen
Love
Me