Wonder if its just to late and things have settled
How much longer before Eva decides I don't want to leave the home she has only known
What will happen then
Wondering why she cannot take it one day
One moment at a time
One situation at a time
What is it that she must go through I fear
So much pain already
Her trial and error
Closer and closer to one another
I want so badly to pick up the phone
Is she wondering what happened for it to be as it is
Does she even get it

My child who lives with me
Who is in fear to explore the outside world
Like the real stuff
Not hanging out stuff
But work
School
Driving school
Her health (doctors who she needs to see)
Just to mention some of my wonders
Wonder if she ever sees the light
Rater then the darkness
It doesn't have to be like that
Darkness
Replaced with the light that still shines within them
Wonder if it can be doable and in your face love
What will happen with my grandchild
Does she not wonder about this
I wonder