Im new too. I'll encourage you to not be shy about your story. I'm here with a lengthy one. Pull your friends/family close. It will help! Hope you get some answers here. If you don't mind, I do have a suggestion. Seek out a Cervial Spine Chiropractor. You may have malalignment at your Atlas (C-1). It's not a high velocity adjustment. Very gentle and effective. Can be of great help.