i played with pudge for fifteen minutes this morning. everything feels as if it is splitting apart. the crazy part of me is excited about having my neck cut. the doctor said i will have a scar but it will fade. the neat part will be that i will be under general general anesthesia so for two hours i won't be itchy or be so uncomfortable with my legs and not be able to move them. If i die during the operation I won't know it.
all my early childhood crap is coming up and i feel isolated. what a disfunctional life. thank goodness for tennis and animals.
bobby