Fear, and depression are horrible when it is stirred up, and triggered. Fear of/and or rejection, and fear of being abandoned is even worse when all stirred up together.

My sister, who died last August said that I would not fall between the cracks.

I mentioned rent, or worse to a family member on line. My next of kin seems to have disconnected communication with me. Other people talk for him. I don't think that he likes me. BF