Bobby, you are acting rationally and in regard to your welfare. This is not about about
being self-interested. . . . more about
self-preservation.
Some times, I get "feelings" about things that come to me. I believe that
your procedure in a few days will proceed well and produce a good outcome.
Trust that you have gotten yourself this far and that you can get yourself
through the next few days.
The rest is up to the hospital, the staff, their policies, their long history of
improving patient's lives, and their huge role in healing the community.
M