How could I so easily I misspoke
I got here with the love and desire to
know Heavenly Father
There were times I had my children in the car
And had a few and thought I was just fine
Amazingly
Not ever to blame
Not to ever pick up again when that would enter my sick mind
How HEAVENLY FATHER
spared my children from me putting them Kim harms way
Did I know any better when alcohol took over
And for me it only took three stiff shots
I was off
Thinking I was this now calm mother
trying to give her children fun
Going down the shore amusement parks
Never was there a time going out to enjoy myself with my babies
did I not have at least three drinks
It is a sad and in your face reality how
I Was Watched Over
Big Time

To say ones mind is made up
It is made up
How many times after a meeting
My child would call and share with me
And the next thing you know she's went out pickup
Mind made up before going to her meeting
Thinking about it while at the meeting
Not using her tools
Resources
She knows them
She needs to make it happen
And we will be right where we always have been
And it be a new way of life
I understand
And powerless to shove it down her throat
All I can do is keep communication going
I have lifted the block on the phone it's almost been a month
We shall see
Powerless
But have Hope
Love
Me