RSDme I completely understand how you feel. When constrain pain is relentless it is draining on both our physical and emotional wellbeing. People on the outside don't understand (and frequently don't try to understand) when the reason for pain is not visible it is all to easy to dismiss. That doesn't mean it isn't real. Try not to worry about pleasing everyone or anyone, just focus on yourself for a while, be kind and gentle to your soul, you are important and you matter and truly that's what counts. Sending virtual love and hugs your way