But you will get through it. I see that you're in the worst possible place right now, but you will - it takes a little time but, for your kids, hang in there; you will get through it. Keeping busy helps; yes, with constant pain it's very hard, but - don't know about you, the pain is with me whether I do things or not, so I figure I might as well be doing stuff, keeps the brain occupied with something different...
You will get through it, believe it

all the best.