I'm having a relapse. I feel very worried about my future security. My emotions are leading to frightening subconscious feelings.

Why do we with mental health challenges have to worry about the future, which makes it harder to deal with the present?

I all of a sudden I broke out into a unusual perspiration at 3 AM yesterday morning. I thought has the humidity gone up suddenly? It was a worrisome event. I thought to myself am I becoming stricken with a physical disease?

All of these things are worse when you are by yourself at 3 AM with fear/depression/panic. BF