I'm really sorry to hear about your accident.

Last year I had a similar event with LOC and amnesia. I destroyed my helmet and would have had a severe tbi or would be dead without it. I am a masters level Cat. 3 cyclist and was training for the upcoming road season. Needless to say that my season was over and indeed I will never race/compete on the road again! My biggest mistake was really underestimating my symptoms and recovery time and pushed way too hard afterward. I have a feeling having the newborn is really exacerbating things for you.

16 months later I did a 5:15 century ride with my brother and am racing cyclocross this year. I got back to about 95-98 % and I feel like I continue to improve.

1) Have you tried dimming the brightness on your monitor? Also, have you considered going to a neuro-optometrist? Both those things helped me, and I still have to wear glasses occasionally to this day. This might just have to do with being in my mid-40s!

2) Also, I think this is due to your vision being really messed up. I'd seriously consider visiting with an optometrist who specializes in managing vision after TBI.

3) I can't imagine going through PCS with a newborn. It was hard enough with a 5 and 9 year old! I have feeling this is one of the reasons your symptoms are really lingering. Are there long blocks of time that you can sleep?

Hang in there!