Calm down. While this is a terrible disease, you at least have a name for it now and it is treatable with medication. And can usually be controlled. Here is an article from Mary Shoman. She is one of the best http://thyroid.about.com/cs/hashimot...phalopathy.htm

And then there is this young lady's site : http://www.thyroid-info.com/helps.htm

Maybe you will get some answers to your questions there. I don't have anything more at this date. Try to stay calm, it CAN be treated.

Billye