I Was on 15mg. After a week, I could barely stand to breathe the depression was so bad. And the overwhelming desire to kill myself was, and still is disturbing. Even now, and I've been off it for two weeks and feel great--I wonder if how terrible I felt about my life and self could have possibly been purely a drug reaction. It felt so real. I wasn't hallucinating. I just looked at the life I had and thought, "Nope. It's better for everybody if I just disappear."