A bladder infection
Maybe that's why they weren't all over her
Honestly
I just don't get it
She continues to try and suck me into her chaos
But I still have to educate her about this kind of stuff
NO
Did that
they were taught well
It's the,
"I want attention now and if I can't get ill tell my mom they are treating me badly"
I learned the last time
Oh she was right at the breaking point
Of death
Make no mistake
Shooting herself up with all her insulin
Are you kidding me

Are you kidding me

Sleep all hours whenever
Be zero productivity
And think this is alright

Oh my goodness
What are you trying to pull

So I say knock it off
I have to deal with a five year old who has a problem with her gym attire
Are you kidding me
She has a problem with the elastic around the ankles
I will have to pull them out
Can you imaging
Five
And I tell her
"I don't make up the rules"
As she grasps my leg
"You have to put them on when you have gym"
"That's the rules the school adults made them rule,
and Eva will get a good grade because you are in uniform
Yup
Oh my goodness
Five
And she will let sweat pants spoil her day
How the heck did I do it
How the heck did I do it
Oh that's right my drinking
Thank you Jesus it was short lived
Yet
Damage already done
But a true blessing
Once I had my a ha moment
I am blessed to have been that alcoholic
It is a big part of who I am today
And to those who understand
Hearing persons say
If they only had a little of what we "have"

And I was the parent that went on all the school trips
It isn't anything I can do now
Corissa is having a hard time
She has an interview with a retail costume store
Just to start
She says
Mom can you stay in the car and just wait for me
Just be near me
Can you imagine
Time for her to work
I will stick it out to ease her fears
She had it tough

I have to take myself to the hospital Monday to have the halter monitor on for twenty four or forty eight hours
This will be interesting

Change of weather taking its toll
on this worn body
I have to get excerise in somehow
Very carefully
Doing the everyday stuff in the morning isn't the same
It hurts
This body hurts to the touch
And is so painful
Certain areas just unable to even touch
That be bone
Right jaw
Affecting my ear
it too hurts
When touched
Will I not run to the doctors
No, but I will keep eye on it
with other similar findings
Part of getting older
And the body rots
I want to survive
And accomplish all that is unfinished
I have another child to help move along in the world
If it were not of my blood
And could care for another child in the same loving way
To belong
To belong
I'm in the position where I just have to do
I would do it again
Like it or not
Not
Not
Not
Just another day mom does what she wants
And that's that
What a shame
Me