Having the right doctors is so key...so glad you have a team that you trust to help you through this difficult journey. We all have those hard days...but I admire your strength and the fight you clearly have. I have posted my share of rants on here...it is a necessary part of the process of dealing with this. We all need a safe place to vent and get our thoughts in order. I know posting here often helps me sort out my thought and helps me make decisions...not to mention the wonderful support I've received from others on here. Take care and keep us posted on how you are doing! Hugs!