I gave up anti-depressants 12 months ago and nothing has changed. I'm still shedding tears and I'm just completely exhausted. Nothing lifts me, it's a daily struggle to get out the front door, actually it's a struggle to do anything. My depression I think has gotten worse. I'm functioning on autopilot. The chaplain at work stopped me yesterday to ask if I was ok, I said I can't go there, I'll just cry and as I uttered the words the tears flowed. I spent the next 60 minutes trying to pull myself together to leave his office and I'm thinking gosh now I can't even have someone ask after me without making a fool of myself. I don't mean fool in the usual sense, just you know the drained mature woman look who has just spent the last hour sobbing, her eyes are puffy, makeup smeared and now she needs to try and finish out her work day and it's not even 11am.