I've been surrounded by people who "communicate" like that throughout my life, but that doesn't mean I like it. I can even dish it out if I'm really provoked, but that's a very rare occurrence now. I've changed, and how I react to behavior like that has changed, too.

My social anxiety is bad enough on its own. I'm not having a lot of positive interactions, and obviously that was a very negative one. Maybe that's a driving factor.

The woman was yelling at me from inside her car, and made no attempt to get out, so I wasn't consciously worried about her assaulting me. I do have an awareness of my physical vulnerabilities though, and I've been worried about that in the past.


I fell asleep on the couch yesterday morning and had to go back to bed. I slept until 3:30pm. I think now that I've come down from hypomania the am dose of gabapentin is too much for me. That's why I stopped taking it twice a day before. I'm going to hold it today to see if it makes a difference… I think it will.
I have to reschedule the pdoc appointment I missed due to car trouble.

I have to buy cigarettes and finish up the rest of the grocery shopping today. I hope skipping the am gabapentin helps because if today ends up like the last two days, going out will be impossible without another epic nap. I'll take my pills early in case I need that nap, and hope that it won't be a long one.