Yesterday I baked a devils "fools" cake in honor of the election. I decorated it and it looked so pitiful! lol. I stayed up passed 2:30am only to pass out during Trump's acceptance speech!!!

I had a horrible day yesterday. I'm sorry this is long, but this was a really, really big anxiety provoking situation for me… I got so anxious and upset that I actually threw up, and that hasn't happened in a very long time.

A guy from maintenance came with a putty knife and a pail of spackle for our ceiling. I told him I'd been expecting a contractor because I was told by the assistant manager from the leasing office twice that one would be coming. He said that they don't hire contractors and he was there to scrape off the loose popcorn from the ceiling and spackle over it…

When I walked by to put laundry away in the bedroom, I took a peek at what he was doing and saw a HUGE black spot on the ceiling with some little holes! And it wasn't even the area directly effected by the water damage!
I knew his plan was to cover it up. I knew it shouldn't just be covered up. I didn't know how to handle the situation, and basically panicked. I ended up telling him to stop working, but I wasn't calm, cool, or collected about it. He said he was going to get the maintenance supervisor to come over and left to get supplies to clean up the mess he made in the bathroom.

Meanwhile, I texted pictures to my husband and called him to ask him what to do. He was irate and was of no help, because all he did was yell, and that made my anxiety ten times worse.

When the maintenance supervisor showed up, he treated me like an idiot because he didn't know where I got the idea that a contractor was coming. He said that he took samples of the ceiling and sent them out to be analyzed for mold. He said the came back negative. Even though the samples came from nowhere near the damage, he said if there was mold anywhere in the apartment, the small samples he took would have come back positive… I'm fairly sure that's ********. I still refused to let them cover the area up, they sprayed for mildew, and left.

Not 10 minutes later, the assistant property manager called me to pressure me to let them cover the damage up. She was very condescending, and basically just repeated what the maintenance supervisor said. She wants to know what I want to do no later than today so this won't drag on (even though we've been waiting for this to be fixed for like 5 years)… I took that to mean that she wants me to tell her that I'll consent to let them cover up the ceiling today.

It was me vs the world

I took a look at my ceiling last night…
The mildew spray they used exposed several large holes with white fibrous threads where the sheetrock should be… mold… dead or alive, but mold.

I'm going to try to make an appointment with the assistant property manager today to share some pictures and speak to her. She needs to see the picture to see why I'm not comfortable with what they want to do and understand I'm not being unreasonable… I want maintenance to remove the popcorn from the area that was directly affected from the water damage and aggressively treat or replace (at least) the sheetrock in those effected areas before they retexturize the ceiling… not unreasonable.

When I see her I will also let her know how displeased I was to find out we had diarrhea water again at midnight last night!

I'm very tired from being up so late. I hope a shower will refresh me. I've taken 1mg of klonopin, but I'm still tied up in knots, so will need at least another 1/2 before I meet with her. I need to make an outline of what I want to say before I go so. It will help keep my anxiety in check and keep my interaction with her more professional vs emotional.

Meanwhile, I'm starting to look for a new apartment.