Lonely1,

You have many justifiable reasons to feel hopeless and angry. I think that there are many people in this country that share some of those same feelings right now, but it sounds like your feelings run a lot deeper than that, and are an extension of the hurt and despair you have already been feeling

I know that you want to help others, and that is a wonderful thing
But it is hard to see all the horrors of this world and accept that we are powerless to intervene. Although this may prove difficult, I suggest staying away from the news. It's going to make things worse for you.

You are not a member of this community to just provide support, you are a member to receive support when you need it, too

My hope is that you will reach out to a friend or family and discuss your feelings with them because sometimes just talking helps. Then, try to find a glimmer of light somewhere in this darkness to focus on if you can to keep you going