Hello im new here to this site. Iv been going through some pretty horrible times in the last year or so actually its been more like the last 5 or 6 years. Im disabled and many people seem to have a problem with that fact about me. I have been stalked, made fun of, my reputation in this town is completly shot where I live.

Im so down sometimes i don't see how I can keep going on. I don't understand people at all!!!

I had to quit my job because I became so exstreamly afraid of people I could not come out of my house.

I am now barely hanging on, Im still not able to come out of my house unless its to go to a member of families house and even thats becomeing hard.

I don't know how to keep on going,,,

Im a christian too so when i think of ending it all, I have to fight with that trying to understand GODs word on the whole sistuation.

Thanks for letting me vent I have no where elese to talk..

xena