When I first wake up, in the morning, I have a feeling of dread accompanied with physical symptoms. These symptoms vary but are equally disturbing. Sometimes it's pressure inside of me, also hard to describe, that prevents me from going back to sleep. Consequently I get up and do something. Sometimes it goes away sometimes it doesn't.

Right now I am struggling just to sit here and having some tea trying to shake this. I don't know what this is. I feel like I'm going to die. Maybe I should talk to someone, I rarely do, there is no one. I am very isolated. What IS this??