You were the first on the forum to wish us all a happy new year! You're not being negative, just acknowledging what we all feel from time to time. The point of a forum is to have support when it happens so rant however much you want. We're here to hear it and will do it alongside you. I'm sorry I don't know each of the specifics of your story but 6 years is a long time, but not a lifetime. I've only had it for 3 years and can only imagine what you're going through. Stay strong for everyone and don't give up hope. There will be a day when you're closer to being pain free and it might just be 2017!!