Okay I went to the doctor today because my neck has been killing me these last few days. Initially I figured, bah! I'm stressed of course my neck is tense, at least until those little electric shocks I was getting every time I moved my head became a sudden thunderbolt with a full body persistent loss of sensation. I was still mobile... just felt like I was wrapped up in bubble wrap, could feel a little bit but highly dulled and seemed to be more psychosomatic sense of touch over an actual sense of touch. But hey somewhat used to that in my legs since breaking my lower back, floaty torso syndrome as I like to call it .

ThBut went to the doctor and basically failed all of the strength and reflex tests on the left side of my body half of them on the right side. To the point that the doctor was surprised I could still walk and move my arms. So I got sent over to the hospital for some x-rays, with three possible reasons, spinal stenosis the severity of symptoms means I might need surgery in the near future, compression fracture, where if the severity of symptoms persist after a month or so of wearing a collar I might need surgery, or an MS flare and welcome to my new normal where the some of the symptoms may improve a little bit.

Is it terrible that I am sitting or rather laying here right now praying for an MS flare??? The thought of wearing a collar for a month or two I think to most would seem like the lesser of three evils, but I have a hardwood floor that needs polished and several tiled floors that need a nice deep scrubbing which is hard enough to do with the MS alone but impossible to do wearing a collar around my neck and by the time I can remove it. It'll be too hot to scrub and polish my floors And of course the very idea of someone filetting my neck and messing around that close to the spinal cord

So please, please, please ya'll keep your fingers crossed for me that this is an MS thing and nothing more