I met with my pdoc yesterday.
I had prepared myself a bit...thinking about what I wanted to say.
I have been overwhelmed and dysfunctional. staring off into space. Unable to get things done. I told her I felt that it was due to the many years that I have been on meds that there was nothing she could do to help me that I just need to accept it.
I told her I cried twice over the holidays with my sisters over a stressful situation. I told them that I was worse. They were sympathetic.
I tried to do something relatively simple on the computer with jeff, I had asked him to help me figure out my airline tickets. I could not do that, jeff did it for me. I still have yet to buy the tickets, i don't think I am able to go with work.
Yet I feel I need to go on this trip.But I am afraid of traveling alone...would try to meet up with my sisters and then take a taxi together to the condo an hour away from the fort lauderdale airport to pampano beach.
My pdoc replied that she believed that Since I was in menopause This was the reason I was having these symptoms. She spent a great deal of time with me. She asked about me trying to see that counselor she had recommended last visit and I told her I called and she charges $120 an hour. I have a $4K deductable. We also talked about me not being able to say no. I agreed to see a couple of new clients who live an hour away on a saturday in a couple of weeks. The daughter told me that she makes the trip 3 times a week. pdoc said she was manipulating me into seeing her folks. I will go once to see how involved it is getting there, it is rural, town called iota.
She suggested all of the self care things that I really need to do to take care of myself.
lose weight,(up 20 pounds since august total 33 pounds since 11-1-15) watch my drinking, exercise, do cross word puzzles, maybe try natural hormones, she did lab work checking my testosterone levels last time and it is low so she suggested I get with my primary doctor and see if they would prescribe testosterone for me. (She said it could make me more aggressive, gee great) I need to see a gyn for my pap so maybe I can talk about that then with her. I also need to have my mammo and bone density test done.
She said the klonipin was to blame for cognitive function decline. I told her I did not want to change meds "we tried to do that last year and it was a disaster".
So in the end she was very supportive and theraputic and spent time with me, so I appreciated her. She wants to see me again in 4 months.
bizi