it was something i would dream about when i was a little girl
a family of my own
never to live like my mother and father were to us
but how i would be the best mom i could ever be
taking them to their first day of school
to graduation
well not so fast
i have live in generations with those before me
and those after me
having watched the keys be handed over enough time from Watergate to date
i having lived what i am about to write
a long time democrat now
having failed my children
as i raised them alone for reasons no child should have suffered at the hands of a very sick man who was my father
this is not someone on the pity pot
but fact
sad to find out i couldn't save my sisters from it
a mother who watched and turned her head
i voted for our now president elect
i someone who took on the car company my ex-husband worked for General Motors
and the child support department
my case set persistence in the state of New Jersey
failed systems that affected me and my children on a very difficult financial road
no only an absent parent loosing sight fighting with me threatened my life if he could not have me
stalked me at my job for years
oh the police
domestic violence not taken very seriously in the early 80's

going to hit the submit so my writing does not disappear

lost all of my work
so much i wanted to share
i took too long
and nobody ever took the ti me out to teach me
maybe it wasn't meant to be
being a parent is the hardest job i ever had
no guarantees in the end
help me understand the difference
me