hi Eva. it sounds to me like you've been a great parent. the fact that you still worry and care about your children shows how much you love them and how awesome a mother you are. your love is unconditional and even if they don't say it, i am sure that realize how lucky they are to have a mother like you. that is what you taught them and that is what they will always remember. You are an amazing mother and friend. Love and Hugs to you.