Oh hugs. Are you in any type of counseling? What meds are you taking? Even though we are in pain, finding the right doctor can help you control the pain. I find that hobbies/crafts work for me (in my R. knee/hip). I enjoy woodburning myself and then painting it.

I take one day or moment at a time. That's all I can afford right now. It is really important to have a goal that while going through your pain you can look towards your goal and it can help.

My goal is to hike again. Even a little one. Currently I cannot even take a nature walk. Ugg. But as long as I keep my goals, I will make it to tomorrow.

Again hugs.