What did the vet think about Pudge's general condition when he saw her, and how was her weight?

I think if the urinalysis comes back okay, you should try the best you can to stop fixating on Pudge's eating and pooping. I know that seems like an impossible thing to do right now though...

You may be able to start doing it if you can find a way to distract yourself (such as reading). It may be helpful to see your pdoc about your anxiety because it seems like it's pretty high right now and making life difficult and uncomfortable for you