Pam,
My heart goes out both you and DB. Right now tho, you need to be the focus of attention.

You and I have gone thru so many similar issues. I can understand your reluctance to start the program dealing with depression. Once it hits this deep patch, it lurks around the corner usually most of your life.

As an addict does, we have to know the signs beforehand and abruptly change course. We have to watch out for the triggers. You are living with triggers daily so you need to deal with a regular routine just to get through each day; even before a trigger gets a chance to show it's ugly face. Hopefully one day it will reduce to watching and being alert to these triggers.

But for now, this "tough Aussie" will need to put aside her reluctance and thru trial and error find a level that is attainable to reach some peace and tranquility.

Please know that thru it all; including DB's issues, we are here with you.

Love & Prayers,

Gerry