Xena Life is always worth living, Sweetie! There are alway rainbows after thunderstorms! I always like to give a certain tidbit of advice because I have seen it work. My Mom is the one who always reminds me of it. I have suffered from anxiety and panic attacks and she always tells me to SLOW DOWN! She means to slow down in everything I do. Talk slower, eat slower, move slower....do everything slower. It is calming. I know that it is really hard to practice but just keep at it. It has helped me and many of my friends, including my manager at work. She, like me, becomes overwhelmed and we have both started to consciencely slow ourselves down. It really does help! My mom lives by that rule and she has came so far! She used to cry when I would go to leave to go home....this tore me up as I needed to leave at the time. She would not leave the house but did not want to be alone either....she would beg me to wait till my Dad came home. She cried alot of the time. Fear....she knows that now...was holding her back. Each person is different and goodness knows where the fear may come from but it is there and it is very REAL! Xena have you ever talked to a doctor about it? These boards are good as well. I wish you had a better responce from people on here....usually there is alot of people responding. Hang in there and keep on posting! I am here and I hope that helps. I want you to be OK. I know it sounds dum but think of the things that you are grateful for in life....those things are worth hanging on for. I got sobe that way and on July 30 2007 I will be celebrating 7 years of sobriety!! It was not easy but I knew that I wanted my life to get better and over time it did. You should browse around the internet as well....not just for info on your problems but also for some inspiration! Remember the Footprints poem.....god is carrying you, Xena! Have faith in that. Reach out for his help as well...it is always there! I will post again later!Thinking of you Dorrie xo