I have suicidal thoughts daily but no intention to act on it. I just want pain to end. Most of these started after I had kids and my sleep dramatically declined. Now that I have 2, someone is almost always sick and I went through months where I was getting 3-5 hours/night. Now I get 5-6.

I'm severely depressed now. I was a very successful poker player before this. Then I went on spiral when I hit my low point and didn't care about the $ I accumulated as it had no value. I lost pretty much everything I made.

My family is falling apart. I moved states, quit my trading job in hopes to heal and everything became much worse.

My family wants me to go to treatment facility for addiction. I think I need break from everything and my suicidal thoughts are getting more common.

My fear is if I go to treatment facility, I will get better just from more sleep and lack of stressors but as soon as I come back to real world, I won't be able to cope. Any advice appreciated.