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Originally Posted by Mark in Idaho
What kind of addiction are you or your family seeking to treat ?
You sound like you have been struggling with depression for quite some time. The apathy toward your winnings is classic depression.
What are you doing to support your family ? Does this help you feel productive ? Feeling productive is very important to mental health for many of us.
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Currently nothing. A couple years ago while I was making a very low salary as a trader(potential for big gains) I won a poker tourney for $150k. I continued to work while I gambled on side and won even more. But the $ was just a distraction for me and attemp to hide my pain/unhappiness from dealing with my TBI. I've studied poker for 10+ years, was one of the best online players, so for me my addiction was my means to make a living.
The problem came when I couldn't handle my life and I gambled high stakes and didn't stop/scale back when I started losing. I wasn't set up for success. My family thinks my addiction is the main cause of my depression/pain and I think it's other way around(does it matter?)