i am not as angry today. yesterday was awful. In the early morning i took care of financial stuff leaving everything to alice. I didn't know til a few days ago you can have a beneficiary at a brokerage house. that stirred up all sorts of feelings towards my nephews. I decided when i am at death;s door I don't want anybody to tell my nephews. I have gotten so angry at them lately. they didn't even visit after the stroke let alone my meeting their children. anyways i told them i was poor so I hope they don't bother alice when i die. I am sure she will outlive me.
ity is probably a mixed mood