yesterday i upped the antidepressants. i felt better. today i won't. He is doing his best. yesterday I bought minutes and time for my new cell phone. I overdid it. I am good til feb 2019. the deals were so good. it is a delicate balance and I think until i stabilize his only recourse is to cut back on the two antidepressants i take and to up the risperdal. He won't introduce another medication. I really haven;t been binging so that is a good sign. what do you expect from him? He isn't a miracle worker. I have faith in him and glad he didn;t do something extreme but is patiently waiting for the mania to go away.you are right about pouring salt in the very old wounds. why? the only recourse is to cut them out .if they invite me to lunch i will go but i won't discuss their treatment of me. I really don't want them to know when I become sick and die.