I am far worse since not drinking, perhaps because I am not numbing my body with booze or perhaps I am trying to be a bit more active. I also believe I have neuropathy damage to the vegus nerve as my heart races a lot.
This is hell and would be so easy to crawl back into the bottle but that will only help for the moment and what has put me in this painful situation. The neuropathy is throughout my body but my poor legs, weak, wobbly and on fire.
The one day at a time thing won't work for me now. Better to look down the road 1 to 5 years hoping for improvement. That is what keeps me going.
Good Lord, what have I done to myself? You young ones, smarten up before it is too late. Your chances for a full recovery are still good.
I am forever grateful for this forum to share. No one knows that I am an alcoholic as I am a loner because of the disease and when I do go out I would never drink as I know one or two would never be enough and my secret would be out. Family and others in my very small world know about the neuropathy but I blame it on unknown reasons. Only here can I share that I have done this damage to myself.