With all respect, thoughts do manifest reality.
Yes, I understand what you are up against. However, you do have power over how this appt. goes. They are not all robo-doctors. Some doctors do, in fact, have the authority and courage to speak for themselves.
The alternative is to just give up. That's not acceptable either.
Do what you can do. You do have the power to not talk about the past, which is what I said. Yes, the past is in the computer. Ignore it. Start over.
If you have already decided that it will be a complete waste of time, then it probably will be. I hope that it isn't.

Annie