Sadly I have to live with her, I have no place else to go. She wants me to go to the Philippines but I refused to go. Because something in the back of my mind tells me she plans to abandon me there. And my outcome would be extremely grim. I mean I have been unable to get a decent job because of my scoliosis issues. I can't walk far without being in intense pain. I had to quit my bowling league 2 years ago because of it.