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Join Date: Jun 2015
Location: New York
Posts: 53
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Junior Member
Join Date: Jun 2015
Location: New York
Posts: 53
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Originally Posted by Bud
Don't go getting nutty about being alone.
I have found life is long on acquaintances and very short on friends. When we expect friends from acquaintance level people there is always disappointment.
I think very few people understand how to make the personal sacrifices that friendship occasionally requires of us.
Someone will come along someday....there is someone out there for everyone.
Bud
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True words man. For sure. Though even with acquaintances, like I do buy the line of science that says we evolved to be social beings. I think to have a space to be social on some level is important, and I do feel at a loss in this regard.
There's obviously good aspects to becoming more solitary, but you know what I mean. It's just nice to meet and share time with other people along common ground, shared interests, to engage in play and etc., even if it doesn't develop into something more than that.
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-First TBI in 2011. Iron cellar door closed on my head. Undiagnosed PCS, and was unaware of anything regarding TBI at the time.
-2nd TBI in August, 2014. Fell skateboarding and hit head on pavement.
-3rd TBI in November, 2014. Hit in the head at work with a dish rack with full strength by a large employee. CT scan normal. Diagnosed mTBI, PCS, PTSD, migraine with aura, and chronic depression. Symptoms have included: quite severe visual disorders, hearing loss in left ear, lethargy, brain fog, dizziness, disordered sleep, hallucinations and "exploding head syndrome", neck and shoulder pain, migraines, headaches, loss of emotions, all forms of cognitive deficiency, loss of reading/verbal ability, sound/light sensitivity, anxiety, panic attacks. Most notably are a general loss of identity and the disillusionment with the world accompanying trauma. But on the other hand, a new and heightened awareness of the nature of self, others, and of suffering itself.
-As of December, 2015, am still experiencing visual disturbances, memory and speech problems, balance, sensitivity and overstimulation issues, along with the trickier to pinpoint cognitive changes, but feel that I am no longer clawing my way through a waking hell, so feel much better about being alive. Hallucinations and panic attacks are gone (thank God!), getting much better at reading and writing, and remembering/planning my daily tasks. Hopeful for further recovery, but thankful to be at least at 50%.
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