Saw the GP, she wanted to me admit me straight to hospital. I've still got the headache but the memory loss is more concerning. I have explained to both my mum & sister there is no point me going to the ED. I think I have a csf leak and my pain Mgt specialist is on leave until next week. SJOG (private hospital) will only send me to Fiona Stanley (public hospital) as SJOG don't have surgical staff on over Easter and I'm not going to FS ever!!. If I can't manage it from home I will go to RPH (public hospital) but I feel it's a waste of time having to sit in the waiting room with all the drunk or stoned Easter yobs. Particularly as they know I suffer with chronic pain & I will be labelled as someone seeking drugs... DB has taken a week off so if I'm no better by Tuesday I will call my PM who will be back from leave by then. I spoke to my nevro rep Thursday and she will let the PM know what's happening. I'll be ok just feeling anxious over the memory loss but I'm sure worrying over it is making it worse. I must have put the painkillers for my head somewhere safe late yesterday afternoon, only I don't know where that somewhere safe is today so I'm trying to rest. I feel very agitated. The head hurts worse when I stand which makes me certain it's a csf leak. MY GP felt the back of my head and said something along the lines of the muscles in my neck were very stiff almost iron like. I don't know what she meant by that and was too overwrought to ask. She asked if I was driving home and I said yes, but it's just over the bridge. She looked worried.
My mum then came to visit and must have also been worried as she got my sister to contact me. My sister and I don't really talk anymore. I was supposed to be cooking a roast dinner for mum this Easter, I've apologised and said I'm sorry I can't. There's a first time for everything. First time I've ever told mum No. more to the point she accepted it, so I must look bad lol.