Did you stop the coffee because of your stomach? Is your stomach still bothering you, and why you're not eating well? Or is the anxiety messing with your appetite? Could you try milk, peanut butter, and crackers/graham? You should be careful about eating because of your diabetes.

I'm sorry about the situation with the checks. It would upset me, too

I'm sorry that you're feeling lonely... I've noticed that you're not posting as often. We love you and are here for you