Won't get much out
As I am leaning on Heavenly Father
I am all over the place with this tiny family you would think not much would be going on
So far from that idea
It is not that I don't put one foot in front of the other and just do someone has to
Everyone else has a life that they have to figure out
The problem beings with calling me and letting me in their world
And yes I listen and listen until I have a chance to speak on a matter I have experience with or on
And if one isn't reseptive to anything I have to suggest and just wants to hear what they want
Well to that I say contact me when you are really ready to be honest and truthful
Until then I have my own path I have to walk
My life has changed
It changed me forevermore and I am a better person because of all that has happened it is not easy
And to put my Spirit first and follow all else follows exactly how it is suppose to be
I miss the routine coming here and trying to follow and start to write only to loose it
And have had help explaining how to hold on to it
I just fail when it comes to technology
My body slowly breaking down as time goes by
Doctors still cannot figure out why my body veins in my hands and feet
Will return to finish
Baby sister stopped by

Back

It a hard thing to have to turn my back on my family
I no longer am a punching bag
No longer their cheerleader no longer will I pick up the phone when I have walked the walk into 25 years of soberiety and for my son to think he can do it on his terms he will need to step out of my life as I will not entertain his desire to pick a fight with me as does things HIS WAY
All I can do is pray but I must cut my ties with two of my children it is because I love them I step back and not be the reason in anyway
They must do what they must without me

My health is priority
And I'm going through it by myself and Heavenly Father
I pray all will pass without incident
Me