I know you had reasons why you cancelled your pdoc appointment, but it worries me that your depression is so deep right now that it scares you. I hope that you are safe, and I'm glad you are seeing her soon

You have such a complicated relationship with sleep. I wish I could just make that one part of your life easier for you

I understand why you don't want to take the Lunesta now. It sounds like the current benefits don't outweigh the risks. You don't need anything right now that could potentially lower your mood.

Thinking of you today, Mari