Oh Erin I'm so sorry for your loss. I know sometimes when you talked about your family it and their craziness as all family's have he was the one who seemed to help keep things together. I hope your family is helping you some now and not expecting the impossible from you as they have seemed to in the past. Parents are especially hard to lose but seems even more so when they're life "glue". Let us know how you're holding up, and feel free to have as many whine and cheese sessions as you like they're well earned and deserved.