As they continue to reach out when they need me
And then it soon goes sour
Nobody is listening
I speak from experience
I couldn't do it alone or my way for that matter
And until this is understood
I have no control in any of it
Does that mean if I express to them I cannot continue or conversation on a subject I have experience in and work it
is where I have to step back and away
And it hurts each and every time
Will it ever happen in my time to see my family not be so angry at God and to take responsibility of their own behavior
To do something about
It is free
No necessary to share
Recommended to just listen
Just listen to the persons who are exactly where they are in their own lives
My nineteen year old is crushing me and a vicious cycle has begun
As the extreme attitude that emeniates form her
When just asking her to make her bed
And ignore me
Roll her eyes
I feel so used
Having to carry her as she still hasn't begun school like she says she wants to
Or get a job
Yup no work for two years
As her father gives her money for fun times
But she won't put any money on the laundry card
Or laundry detergent and softener
She likes that soft feel I provided
So used I am
I give gave till there isn't anymore to give
I do not have the capabilities to work anymore
She knows this and sees what's happening
Crushed I am
I have but my own capabilities
I got sick
And had no control over that
My hands and feet hurt so badly
They have a heartbeat of pain
I cannot make it stop
And this she cannot see
But I feel
And still am forced to do the dishes
I cry as only Heavenly Father knows
And I put my body into his hands
My mind heart and soul
And to take my last breath without resolve
Would be so sad
Hoping for a happy summer
We are members of the twin pool
Put into Heavenly Fathers hand and the office for the threat and disruption stop with the above tenant
Holding my breath
I am still needed
Me