resentments: dear PamelaJune here is just a little example how I have to deal with early morning rise
I don't look back at time accumulated
But instead to keep that time going on
I stay in the day
Some may not agree
That's okay
As my two younger girls have made meetings everyday for the last five days one day made two
My son also attending the rooms
And this morning i found myself in a hard to explain place
Both my girls sleeping while I get up to get Eva ready for school and the next thing I hear
"We're making a meeting tonight"
"It's my home group"
I just broke down

Why

Resentments surfaced
I had to remind both my girls why

Why

Since my physical state has deteriorated to the point I am only comfortable driving (and this is only in my town)
Fused I need to be very careful
And my homegroup meeting is Sunday morning 9:00 AM
NOBODY to offer to watch Eva so I can slowly get myself down there
The utter insensitive behavior is not fair
And I still have to do
What drives me nuts is the idea that my belongings are taken without asking me is a big NO NO and that's not okay

Over and over again I ask my daughter not to touch my belongings without my permission
I don't even think it registrars
That's how out of control it has become
She can ask her dad for money to get her nose pierced a second time
cuz that trumpet what was priority not shopping
And do I have to swallow this
Resentments have begun to happen when I still have to do the laundry dishes vacuuming wiping the floor get the laundry done and make sure we have detergent to do it
And what do you think I hear from my granddaughters mother this morning
I was getting upset and began to cry on my way to the meeting
As both my youngest made a meeting
Frazzled because she cannot do the same
Well someone has to do it
Right
Or I then live like a sloppy person
That's not who I am
Even as sick as I am
Really
Really
Frazzled with the few things that I needed her to do
And the other one was all about her new piercing
And I'm like take a deep breath
This too shall pass
And I won't let them pick a fight with me
Oh heck yes my resentment surfaced by the utter self absorbed attitude today
So I will just do
And pray
Me